Secrets - I am a dreamer

We all have those secrets we can't share with the people whom are close to us, no matter how much we want to tell these people, we can't.

I've always known that my mother never really meet her real father, she only talked to him on the phone 2-3 times, once she told me that he was listening to the song 'Lady in Red' i know, that for my mother this song means something special, and i'll admit that when i hear the song, i also think about him.

My mother is a secret. She've told me that he never told his family about having her, having a granchild - he was even invited to my baptism but didnt show up, i always wonder how my life could have been if i'd have known him, his family the part in Cardiff, i would have loved to see where he lived, where his parents lived. Everything.

I've tried to find some of his family, but i can't, i think its the fact that he was born in 1944 and was an only child. Maybe one day, hopefully soon - i want to be able to go to Cardiff to see where my family lived, take a lot of pictures so that i'll never forget the place, and i'll be able to show my mother the pictures and tell her about my journey. 

I am a dreamer.